[wordup] The Myth of Talent

[Adam Shand]

Via: Brett Shand <brett at shand.net>
Source: http://www.tmelive.com/index.php/articles/view/28/24.html

"The Myth of Talent" by Craig Tanner
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Posted: October 24th, 2008 @ 2:10am

> "Often people attempt to live their lives backwards; they try to  
> have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they  
> want, so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the  
> reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need  
> to do, in order to have what you want." ? Margaret Young
> "Genuine beginnings begin within us, even when they are brought to  
> our attention by external opportunities." ? William Bridges
>
> "Talent is long patience." ? Gustav Flaubert
>
I can still remember the looks of incredulity when I left the hospital  
and made the declaration that I was quitting my job in order to become  
a nature photographer. I am sure, to the people closest to me, my  
dream did seem to come way out of left field. Like millions of people,  
I owned a camera. But I had never done anything except take snapshots.  
I couldn't even particularly claim photography as a hobby. But there  
was a connection. I had lived with an overwhelming passion for the  
natural world for as far back as I could remember. I loved to hike and  
to backpack. I felt completely alive surrounded by wilderness. So I  
made a decision in intensive care. I was not going back to an empty  
life lived half-awake. I was going to arrange my life, as much as  
possible around what I loved. And I believed that becoming a nature  
photographer would allow me to share my most passionate connection  
with the world in the most direct way possible.

In 1988 I was 27 years old and living in someone else's dreams. Up  
until that point I had not found the courage to truly confront the  
conditions of my life. I did know enough about myself to know that I  
was burnt out in my job. When you work at things that do not renew  
your spirit burn out is what happens. I felt trapped and depressed.

Later in that same year, during a surgery to correct a congenital  
deformity of my face, the procedure did not go as planned. I was  
supposed to wake up in a recovery room. Instead I woke up in intensive  
care with a breathing tube down my throat and with a fear I had never  
experienced. Life had called my hand.

When it comes down to it, I believe we all know what the next step is  
to free ourselves. But so much of the time taking that step is  
seemingly so scary that we do everything we can to avoid even thinking  
about it. What if we find out we don't have what it takes? What if we  
fail at the one thing that we believe could be our salvation. What if  
we fail trying to attain our biggest dreams. Then what?

Conventional wisdom says that it is not enough to dream. You need  
talent. And definition of talent lifted straight from the dictionary  
describes talent as "a natural ability of a superior quality". In  
other words, you either have it or you don't. I call this cultural  
flaw in our self-awareness the Myth of Talent. And buying into this  
dead end myth about ourselves is where it goes wrong for many people ?  
particularly people who have a dream of becoming an artist. We look  
behind ourselves at what we have been and we see a person defined by  
everyone else's expectations and declarations. And since the  
definitions of the people we have allowed to define us did not include  
artist, we see everything but. We look ahead to see the artist we  
could become and we get easily the universal voice of our own self  
doubt that says ? "Who are we kidding ? without the physical evidence  
of any natural ability, how could we ever possibly attain our dreams?"

In intensive care I did not have time to worry about the past and I  
felt, for the first time in my life, painfully aware that my time in  
the future was limited. It was the real life version of the  
hypothetical game ? "What would you do if you only had short time to  
live?". External events forced me to be here now and that changed my  
life. It changed my life because what we all need is the presence to  
practice being the person now that we want to become.

We need this presence because the truth about talent is this ? talent  
is a set of skills you develop over time through desire.

People disagree and the old nature vs. nurture argument rears its ugly  
head. They say "surely you aren't denying that gift and natural  
ability exist?" I do believe in gift. Every encounter you have with  
another person is a sacred encounter with a gifted human being. But  
the gift of natural ability, without the awareness of it, or without  
passion attached to it, is either an unknown or unfulfilled potential.  
Even when natural ability is discovered and nurtured, it is only good  
for one thing ? altering the trajectory of your learning curve.

Your one true gift is love and the desires of your heart because love  
can do what natural ability never will ? conquer all of your fears ?  
the fear of being a beginner, the fear of looking stupid, the fear of  
failing, and the fear of the unknown. Love can do this because love  
alone is limitless. When we enter the realm of our most passionate  
desires and remain there, the recreation of ourselves is not only  
possible - it is inevitable.

The summer after my surgery and 5 months after I put in notice at my  
old job, my love of nature carried me all over the American west. You  
see I had a plan. I was going to jump- start my career as a nature  
photographer by photographing landscapes in national parks for six  
straight months. So I left Atlanta, Ga. in May of 1988 in a pickup  
truck which was loaded with camping gear, lots of canned tuna, two  
35mm camera bodies, three lenses and a couple of hundred rolls of  
Kodachrome 25 slide film. I also had a plan for processing my film. I  
figured there would be very few photo labs in the places I planned to  
visit. But I knew there would be a post office in every national park.  
So in addition to the film, I bought Kodak processing mailers. I would  
just pop the unprocessed film in the mail as I went and all of my  
processed slides would be waiting for me in Atlanta when I returned  
from my career-launching trip.

That summer and early fall were pure heaven. I went to just about  
every mainline national park west of the Mississippi. And I didn't  
just go to the overlooks. I hiked hundreds of miles. I immersed myself  
in each and every location. It seemed I fell in love with a new place  
almost every day. And yes, I took thousands and thousands of pictures.  
And then a funny thing happened. In early October while I was  
photographing in Olympic National Park, I realized I was homesick and  
unable to process anymore grandeur. I made a beeline cross-country  
from Seattle and arrived in Atlanta three days later.

And there waiting for me in Atlanta, mailed from the Kodachrome  
processing plant, was a national monument sized stack of little  
cardboard, slide filled boxes with all of the photography from my  
trip?? And when you look up the word disappointment in the dictionary  
there ought to be at least one picture of me going through each box,  
slide by slide, desperately looking for, but never seeing ? not even  
once ? anything on film that even remotely approached the awe  
inspiring beauty of my experience. At the time it was the most  
devastating let down of my life. I had never felt so foolish. The  
written journal I kept was a better record of what I saw than my  
photography.

The truth about the images from my trip in 1988 is that not one image  
from that body of work has ever been included in any of my portfolios.  
Not one image from that trip has ever been published. I did sell a few  
awful prints to people who must have felt sorry for me. But the bottom  
line is that I had laid an absolute photographic egg. I had visited  
some of the most beautiful landscapes on the planet and in over 7000  
clicks of the shutter had not even gotten lucky.

Conventional wisdom would say I had seriously failed the ultimate  
photography aptitude test. Conventional wisdom would also say I should  
give up on what looked like a dead ringer for a pipe dream and move on  
to something else. I clearly was lacking a "natural ability of a  
superior quality". In fact my trip was almost proof that when it came  
to photography, I had something closer to a natural ability of an  
inferior quality. But true wisdom would say that as a beginner I had  
done the only thing I was capable of doing. And in intensive care,  
that same inner voice of wisdom had spoken to me and I had listened.  
And I knew that I absolutely would not, under any circumstance, go  
back to trading my life away for a paycheck.

After a couple of weeks of recovery from the let down, the ultimate  
truth about my trip began to settle in - I had the best time of my  
life creating all of those horrible pictures. The process of being a  
photographer had allowed me to have the most heightened six months of  
experience in my life. My whole thought process started to revolve  
around figuring out a way to do it again. My dream of being a full  
time photographer was as solid as ever.

I continued to be a beginning photographer for quite a while. Instead  
of taking horrible pictures all across the west, I did the same thing  
much closer to home. Because my skill level remained low, I could not  
earn a living as a photographer. I had to get another job to support  
myself. But this job was chosen for the flexibility that it allowed me  
to pursue my dream. I also seriously simplified my lifestyle so that I  
did not need a lot of money to survive and that gave me more time and  
money to practice photography. And like anyone who practices what they  
love, my skill level increased. Slowly but surely for the last fifteen  
years I have continued to improve my skill level and improve the  
quality of my work.

Long term, focused, practice powered by the energy of passion and love  
of the process leads to amazing transformations. The bumbling beginner  
becomes the exalted expert. The trapped and depressed become the  
liberated and empowered. So why do we so easily buy into the limiting  
mythical idea about talent being nothing but a birthright?

To me there are two big reasons and the first has to do with our most  
basic fear ? the fear of being rejected. The first word most of us  
learn is no. And from an early age we are programmed to get our  
rewards by performing as close to flawlessly as possible all of the  
time. Our outcomes become everything. We will go to extraordinary  
lengths, like giving our lives away to meaningless jobs that we could  
do in our sleep after a day of training, just to get a yes and a  
paternal pat on the back from an external source. So to avoid  
rejection we absolve ourselves of being responsible for our own  
creativity by agreeing with the myth.

And I believe the other reason we are frozen by the myth of talent is  
the talented people themselves. The highly talented do not get our  
attention until their skill level is so high that no trace can be  
found of the bewildered beginner they surely have been. Their highly  
evolved skills do seem to come out of nowhere like a magical byproduct  
of the magical birthright we have been told about.

Over the last few years I have heard myself being labeled as a  
talented photographer. Knowing what that means to most people, my  
impulse is to offer some kind of a clarification because I know better  
than anyone about the truth of my humble photographic beginnings and  
the national park sized "failures" those beginnings contained. I can  
only laugh at myself because I am in on the unintentional joke  
contained within the myth. Being labeled talented only means we have  
survived being untalented.

A question I get quite often is what was the one big external break  
that led to the launch of my career. And you can imagine the looks of  
incredulity I get when I say the biggest break in my career as a  
photographer was actually given to me before I was a photographer in  
an intensive care unit in February of 1988. Ultimately, on that day, I  
didn't even come close to dying. But I thought I might. And finally  
facing the ultimate fear was what it took for me to truly wake up and  
start to live. On the only level that matters - on the inside ? I  
became a photographer because I entered the realm of my most closely  
held and passionate desires and I was committed to remain there - in  
that perfect place where anything is possible.

Seven Ways to Create Your Own Space for Artistic Growth

1) Breathe - Fear needs a timeline to exist. When we are afraid we are  
worried about our past actions or possible future outcomes. Worrying  
about time we do not control robs us of the power we have in the  
present to transform ourselves. When the fear of being a beginner (or  
any other fear creeps into our minds) we can respond by simply paying  
attention to our breathing. Just a few seconds of observing our  
breathing can dissolve our fears by bringing us back to now and to the  
presence we need to be the artist we desire to become.

2) Set Goals - Create goals and share them with the universe. Setting  
goals maximizes our power of choice and our power of attraction. If we  
have goals we can have a benchmark for the question "Is the choice I  
am about to make going to bring me any closer to where I want to be as  
a photographer?" By sharing our goals we are literally saying here are  
the desires of my heart. Assistance pours in when others know exactly  
what to do to help us, and when we are clearly open to, and ready for  
the help.

3) Model on others - Only you can walk your path. But you can help to  
make it more of a straight line from where you are now to where you  
want to be. Pay attention to the actions of those who are further  
along on the road - or enlist the help of a guide.

4) Reflect - Each day create the space for a quiet time of inner  
reflection. Observe how you are feeling and make choices based on your  
observations.

5) Recharge - Play or rest ? but definitely recharge yourself each  
week by taking time off.

6) Create an artist support group ? Surrounding ourselves with people  
who share in our desires helps to keep us on track by adding  
accountability to our space.

7) Be your own biggest supporter ? Most of us have become our own  
biggest critic. Here are five ways to be self-supportive.

? Be kind? to yourself - Compassion starts with how we treat  
ourselves. We all have an inner critic that can do a lot of damage if  
left unchecked. To bring your inner critic under control, practice  
balancing all self-criticisms with an immediate, legitimate, self- 
compliment.

? Suspend Judgment - Quit equating yourself with your artwork. "Am I  
making progress?" is a much better question to ask than " Is this  
artwork any good?" The story of greatness is a story that includes  
many actions that look like failures when judged out of the context of  
the whole story. "Am I making progress?" is a question that always  
allows you to see the potential value of all of your efforts. You are  
much more than any work or body of work. Your story is as expansive as  
you allow it to be.

? Practice, Practice, Practice!!! - Disconnect from the outcome.  
Creativity equals conscious productivity. But we often think to be  
creative we have to make art that exhibits greatness every time. That  
kind of expectation leads to artist block because it encourages us to  
wait for the perfect conditions for greatness instead of creating  
greatness through passionate, deliberate practice. To be more creative  
- be more consciously productive.

? Embrace uncertainty (allow yourself to have a new experience) -  
There is no artist Shangri ?La. So let go and quit looking for it. If  
put into practice, choosing to be the vision or dream you have for  
yourself is always leading you into the unlimited potential of the  
expanding unknown. Embrace the uncertainty that comes with following  
your vision.

? Be thankful and generous - Be in gratitude for what is and share  
what you have to offer. To often we curse what we have and focus on  
our needs. Turn it around!